By Sherry Settles
Lately, although I hate it, I’ve been suffering from the “what if?s”. What if I hadn’t got cancer? What if I didn’t have these horrible continuing side effects from radiation and chemo? What if life had gone on as normal almost three years ago, and left out that chapter of our lives? What if I had not felt abandoned by some people during my illness?
At about 4 this morning, I was lying in bed – tears falling because of the pain in my body and in my heart. As always, when I am awake in the night, I have conversations with myself and with God. As cliche as it sounds, I told myself, “every day may not be good, but there is good in every day. You have to choose to see that good that God has so graciously surrounded you with. As always, God chose to put an explanation point to my talk this morning, by just having the following quote in one of my email devotions. I feel like I needed to share this – perhaps someone else needs to hear these words today. These are not my words, these are words that someone else penned, and were encouragement for me today.
Written by Max Lucado
It’s quiet. It’s early. For the next 12 hours, I’ll be exposed to the day’s demands. It’s now that I must make a choice. And so I choose…
I choose love. I will love God and what God loves.
I choose joy.
I choose peace. I will live forgiven.
I choose patience — rather than complain that the wait is too long, I’ll thank God for a moment to pray.
I choose kindness — for that’s how God has treated me.
I choose goodness.
I choose faithfulness. Today I’ll keep my promises. My wife will not question my love.
I choose gentleness. If I make a demand, may it be only of myself.
I choose self-control. I will be impassioned only by my faith and influenced only by God.
Love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control. When this day is done, I’ll place my head on my pillow and rest.